Today, I’m going to address fear. Fear takes away control, creates, anxiety, and leaves one powerless. There are so many fears- The fear of failure, the fear of not being enough, of things not working out, losing a loved one, of losing financial stability, fear of not having health insurance, and of course- fear of dying.
I have had a fear of writing in the past few months. I am afraid I will say the wrong thing, that no one will read it, that I say too much, that I am uninteresting, and that I won’t impact anyone at all.
My head has been full of overwhelm and fear. I am so afraid of losing my friends to cancer. I am afraid of debt. I’m afraid that I will never have a month when I don’t go to the doctor and have something “wrong”. I have already experienced so many health problems this year. I am frustrated and afraid that I will lose hope and optimism, and that people will start to think I am an endless broken record of illness. I fear I will stop being able to have gratitude and stop knowing how many amazing things I have and how, luckily, all of my health issues can be addressed. I mean, crap, I was afraid of November 1st because that is when open enrollment for health insurance starts. I have to figure out how to sustain insurance with my company when my job doesn’t offer the coverage I need.
Fear is almost as nasty as anger. Guess what, FEAR- you don’t have me yet!! I am fighting. I have people fighting for me! I am fighting for others. You know what Fear? You should be fearing ME! I have the tools, knowledge, strength and right now, YOU ARE NOT WINNING!
Let’s work together to nurture our strength, resilience, and resistance. If you have fear and need help giving it the finger, you just let me know. One thing I have never feared is helping others and having a heart full of empathy and compassion. You just get ahold of me and we will intimidate and decrease that fear.